it's ok...

yeaterday,
was a day of sadness.
for me, my friends, ekamatra.
we lost the battle
ofwhich we have prepared
very well to the best of our abilities.

disappointment...
regret....
resentment....
suspicion....
guilt...
were intensely felt then.

we might be able to say,
it's ok... we have tried our best
the throphy's just not ours
at least we won something
but the truth was clear
we couldn't accept it.

i do feel the pain...
even though i wasn't on stage
even though the audience couldn't see me
i do feel the sorrow...
the feeling of being lost
in my own dream.

but...
as much as i am sad
i am glad that it happened
for there is a bright side to it
beneath the tears, heartache
beneath it all lah.

coz it was because of the pain
that i have people crying on me
seeking comfort in my arms
using my shoulder to cry on
wet it really well
and leave for another, drier shoulder

it was during the time of great disappointment
that i can behave like a shield
to protect and safeguard you
from the harms of the earth
when you are in your most vulnerable state
i was there, hiding my own tears to catch yours

in all, i thank God for the moment
for it was then that i realize
the deep feeling of love that i have for you
the bond that we actually have
strong enough for you to instantly
seek refuge in me

so it's ok...
it's ok that we lost
coz we have won in our own ways
in ways that are more valued than throphies
in ways better than the elation the 3 schools felt
it is bitter moment turned sweet.