my lame entry.

sometimes i question myself.... what is life? is it a hamper of seemingly attractive routines sold at a discount price during the Great Singapore Sale? is it about endless battles of Jenga between you and the wind? or is it a chain of love and pain, continuously played like some broken record?

then i think to myself.... why am i thinking about this? to find excuses for any possible failures? to know the true purpose of me being alive? or to see what is it that i have not yet achieved after spending almost two decades on earth?

a few moments later, i cried to myself.... why is my life so painful? is it because i have sinned too much and pain is like a retribution for me? is it because, unlike the rest of them in my class, i am still single? or is it because i am putting my hopes on the unthinkable and far-fetched?

................................... then i realized................................. i haven't answered any of the questions. then i asked myself..... are there answers to them? i mean, life is not like science and math, something that one can understand and ace by memorizing fixed concepts. it's not like multiple choice where a toss of a coin might just give the right answer. life's not about that at all...

that was when i realize that i'm here not to talk about life..... i'm here to change my blogskin and write about love, my forte (althouth all my attempts in relationships failed big time...) by this time, i think you're cursing and swering at me (come on, admit it) for writitng a whole lot of sensible, deep stuff that tickles your brain till it burst into tears, hoping to find something deep, inspirational and helpful for yourself just to finally fall into an anti-climax. HAHA! well.. what can i say... i am the same old brand new blur educated idiot. ha! take that for an ending... not only is it triple oxymoron, it's self realization. sekian... tankiu!