how could i

it's just in me...
to help...
it's a result of my past.
that i do all these.

my intentions were good...
for friend or foe...
all in the name of friendship.
that i care so much.

well...
that's part of the reason.
it's also done out of envy.
that i care too much.

you guys are fortunate.
showered with all the love in the world.
things that i can only imagine.
you're given the chance to own them.

no matter how much troubles you face
you are lucky to feel them.
things that i can only imagine.
you're allowed to own them.

so i guess that's it...
it's also part of envy...
that i want to help.
to see your happiness last.

but...
things go bad...
even for me who only imagined them all.
you don't want me to stay.

and so i left...
in the name of friendship.
to help you guys...
in your endeavours.

but...
it hurts to see...
you guys cry over things that you owned.
things that i could only imagine.

if i were to follow my heart
i would have put my hand in your heart
and try to heal it to the best that i can
but you once bit my hand when i tried to do so

if i were to follow what you want of me
i would be suffering from a far
for i can only see you weep your heart away
and i can't be there to wipe your tears dry

how could i...
just leave you as that...
to see someone whom i care deeply
fade in your own emotions.

how could i....
but...

it is with your wish that i do so
so as hard as it is to let you go
i shall... for there's no other way can i take