The Change

Now, the life i have now is different from just a few months back. It's filled with satisfactions, accomplishments, disappointments, and replacements. Some changes are hoped for whilethe rest are simply the worst tragedies i could ever thougght of.

Bad news first eh...

My ties with the first person who rendered h** help when i was still new has been severed to a point that, no matter how many sorries either parties try to say, it will never go back to the way we were before. Hurt, disappointment and anger were all that i can remember from the relationship i had. It is a sad to see how things have to end this way. Now, it is so hard to get behind the walls put up around h**.

Grief is a solitary thing. Despite having someone to comfort me after the fitt, despite having more than someone whose on my side of the league, my heart still hurts deeply whenever i set my eyes on h**. The sound of h** voice painfully reminded me of how sweet things were before all the screw ups. Previously, the room was all about fun, joy and excitement. Now, the walk up seems interminable, and the room is like a tomb.

In the midst of all the sadness, one hurdle, which was initially thought to be but a fantasy, has finally been overcomed. The dream of entering the University of my choice, NUS, has finally come true. I never thought i would be able to make it that far. Looking back at my childhood and the devil i used to be, nobody would even imagined it. it's been a week since the day i got the acceptance letter but until today, i wake up thinking that it is all a dream gone to far.

At this point, i have two feelings....

Overjoy.

Misery.