BRING IT ON

1 month of not blogging does not mean that nothing has happened in my life. IN FACT, there has been many eventful things that occured in my life. whether or not ppl notice it, that's a diff story altogether.

ok! where do i start?


aha! NUS life.

SEM 1... i was completely invisible. i can walk to and fro infront of a group of ppl only to not have one person looking up at me. struggled through my 5 mods, of which some i almost competely blindly picked and for the rest, i tagged along with the only friend from JC. i had most of my lunches alone in the huge, human infested DECK. in btw lunches and lessons, i would either warm up one of those blue benches in the Forum or have very long solats and time offs letting myself be drifted off by at the scenic view AS6's mussollah. begged for help with my science GEM from one random person in LT26 of science fac. that was the only 'friend' i had then... looking at the fact that my JC friend became a babe in sch and started attracting very eligible bachelors, thus having less time with me. i can't deny the fact that she's a hottie! happy for her though... if only i am... nah... forget it.

SEM 1 break (i guess... when was fasting month?)
got involved in my first NUSMS event. progs head for iftar. GOD! was it a real test of my patience or what!!!! i could feel my newly adopted principles in life (had a few when i entered NUS) being put up for the credibility test. after that, i felt like i had to sit down and rethink abt the changes i want to have my life. it didn't feel real. aka.. i felt fake. it was then that i realise the effects of being very immersed and comfortable in a secular school's culture. say it with me... culture shock... BIG TIME!

Somewhere in DEC- JAN
second NUSMS event. i decided to be myself. i thought "hey! heck with miss nice-and-oh-so-fragile. take me for what i truly am." i have to admit though... i was hesitant to see the result of my stand. i mean.. i know what i am and i have a strong feeling ppl are going to see me different from the rest (in a bad way..) still, i got to know of a few new faces. that's a nice start... two of them stand out from the rest and i swear i didn't think twice before engraving their names in THE LIST. i was happy seeing some ppl like and able to accept the ME i'm comfortable with. ok fine.. i was skeptical.. i was pessimistic.. i was insecure.. i was naive.. i was.. all the negative lah! circle of friends widened like... SUDDENLY!!!!





eh! panjang jugak eh... dah penat bace ke blom? di sini dah malas nak meleret.


ok! point form! wakaka!

• my life turned colurful
• muslimah night with more new faces and those two sweeties
• foc with the two sweeties and more familiar faces plus a few newbies
• on trial with a new friend, so far.. like what i see
• maybe another name on THE LIST soon enough
• my name is now a cheer. haha! tanks to some TPJCians. =p

silent in my heart, despite the many beautiful things that has happened, i'm fighting one battle that does not see an end nearby. the new friends have hints of the battle.. they can't help much but they have and are still doing all that they could. it is in times like this that i miss zurie. she's my only solace. she's my other, just like how ogre and shreka complement each other.

this, i quote from ogre: "it's like a 180 degrees turn!" so explains the events that has led me to where i am now. i can't wait for the new sem to begin. have a lot of catching up to do due to solemn SEM 1. but... hey! i'm geared up!

BRING IT ON!!!!!!!