where's mine?

am i that bad that they don't know how to respect me?
am i that minute that all are unable to sense my presence?
am i that soft that my views cannot be heard?
am i that wierd that they don't understand me?

OR.......

are they that unwilling to give me the respect i deserve?
are they that cruel to disacknowledge me?
are they that bad to be giving me a deaf ear?
are they that deliberately trying to ridicule me?

i gave them what they desire...
i gave them what they deserve...
i gave them all....
but.....
where's mine?

ANYONE OUT THERE?

very dark room
pitch black
you're in there
i know
called for you
''you there?''
i answered myself

very dark room
pitch black
you're in there
i'm sure
called for you
''answer me.''
i answered myself

very dark room
i'm scared of it
you're in there
no doubt
i called for you
''answer me please.''
i answered myself

very dark room
hate it
you're in there
i entered the room
with a torch
i called for you
''damn you! come out!''
i answered myself
and i got burnt

very dark room
you're in there
i know
just come out
i'm lonely
come out
i need you
you're in there
right?

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what's there...

What's there.....
in ties?
other than relationships,
truths and lies,
love and hate,
friends and families?

what's there...
in study?
other than knowledge,
acheivements and failures,
questions and answers,
learners and teachers?

what's there...
in work?
other than money
status and prejudice,
10k or 200,
bosses and workers?

what's there...
in life?
other than this?
what's there...
that we call future?
what's there...
that we call past?

well...
there's nothing there.
it's all here.
it's all now.
it's all....
my destiny.
and i shall do just that.
no more questions asked!