today i spent time with dwi after school.
we watched kung fu hustle...
fun gilerr....
but very the violent.
i wonder if this show was being censored in the cinemas.
but wat the heck....
it was fun...
i got to watch it...
so the heck goes to censorship!

how could i

it's just in me...
to help...
it's a result of my past.
that i do all these.

my intentions were good...
for friend or foe...
all in the name of friendship.
that i care so much.

well...
that's part of the reason.
it's also done out of envy.
that i care too much.

you guys are fortunate.
showered with all the love in the world.
things that i can only imagine.
you're given the chance to own them.

no matter how much troubles you face
you are lucky to feel them.
things that i can only imagine.
you're allowed to own them.

so i guess that's it...
it's also part of envy...
that i want to help.
to see your happiness last.

but...
things go bad...
even for me who only imagined them all.
you don't want me to stay.

and so i left...
in the name of friendship.
to help you guys...
in your endeavours.

but...
it hurts to see...
you guys cry over things that you owned.
things that i could only imagine.

if i were to follow my heart
i would have put my hand in your heart
and try to heal it to the best that i can
but you once bit my hand when i tried to do so

if i were to follow what you want of me
i would be suffering from a far
for i can only see you weep your heart away
and i can't be there to wipe your tears dry

how could i...
just leave you as that...
to see someone whom i care deeply
fade in your own emotions.

how could i....
but...

it is with your wish that i do so
so as hard as it is to let you go
i shall... for there's no other way can i take

are you interested?

are you interested...
in the gift that i have...
for no one else but you...
you said you are.

are you interested...
in treasuring my efforts...
that i shower for only you...
you said you are.

are you interested...
in winning their hearts...
to secure our future together...
you said you are.

but are you...
really.. really interested?
you said you are.
i doubt your honesty.

coz your actions don't prove them.
they are the total opposites.
you said you are.
your actions showed otherwise.

you gave up on the crucial matters.
that can help us in forming 'US' again.
as much as i tried to understand that..
i can't help but to think that you're not interested.

you surrendered at the slightest bump.
bumps that would score you points.
as much as i tried to understand your logic..
i can't help but to think that you're not interested.

you made me do the extra mile for you.
one that would assure me of your sincerity.
as much as i tried to be compromising..
i can't help but to think that you're not interested.

to ask you the question again..
is of no use to me...
i know the answer...
the same answer...

so now...
it is totally up to you...
to prove to me your interest.
you'll have to try a lot harder than ever.

it is because of friends like you

it is because of friends like you
that my world seems complete
even though there are spaces
you make me see the whole

it is because of friends like you
that my problems just pass me by
even when they're pulling me down
you make me feel light

it is because of friends like you
that my life's filled with flowers
even though there are thorns
you make me enjoy the colours

it is because of friends like you
that my life is bright
even when troubles cloud my heart
you make me shine through it

it is because of friends like you
that my life is filled with love
even when enemies poison them
you gave me the power to heal

it is because of friends like you
that i'm grateful to live
when obstacles make me want to end it
you gave me reasons to carry on

i live in the past for a purpose
it serves as a reminder
of the things that i once went through
things that shook my life most

it is to remind me of my failures
in fighting evil well
on how i quickly surrendered because of fear
how i let them destroy my life without a fight

it is to remind me
so that i know these people exist
so that i will be more careful
so that when i see them again, i am stronger

it is also to remind me of the angels
that i once met
who held my hand tight and never did let go
even when the world's against me,they were there

it is to remind me
that life has its sweetness
so that i will remain more optimistic
so that when i see them again, i will hold their hands too

this is specially dedicated to a few kind souls
who have touched my life
i want you all to know how much you mean to me
and you will forever own a place in my heart
thank you for making this world a beautiful place
for me and the others to live in....

Primary School Angel
Xie Yun Qian

Secondary School Angels
Lam Desa (Faith)
Amanda Goh Yi Li (Mandy)

Junior College Angels
Farahdillah (Fairy)
Siti Zuhriyyah (Zurie)
Siti Aisyah (Syah/Jah)

love paraidse

You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see

You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you
through rain and shiny days

I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go

Need you all my life
You're my hope You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life be our love paradise