dia sudah matang

adik aku sudah matang
pemikirannya amat aku kagumi
pandangannya terhadap isu-isu yang sama
namun jauh berbeza kupasannya

adik aku sudah matang
kebolehannya untuk mengawal perasaan
kalahkan aku 10 - 0
walaupun aku yang lebih tua

adik aku sudah matang
ketulusan hatinya tidak ternilai
pabila berhadapan dengan pria idaman
lautan sedalam manapun sanggup dia selami

adik aku sudah matang
dia licik, pintar dan sabar menanti
menanti gilirannya untuk bertindak
dan hapuskan musuhnya ke akhir titisan darah

adik aku sudah matang...

dan apabila aku bandingkan diriku samanya

aku kaget!

mungkinkah selama ini

aku belum matang lagi?

setelah apa yang aku lalui

aku tidak setaraf dengannya!

malah...

aku tercampak jauh ke belakang!!!

apa benar sangkaan aku??

bahawa aku

kakak pada adik matang ku itu

belum lagi matang?

aku takut...

takut dengan kemungkinannya...

aku takut...

takut sekali....

''if you want to continue with the friendship, call/msg me tmr...

if not, just ignore me. i'll wait for your msg... ''

WAT THE HELL!!!

F*** OFF ONCE AND FOR ALL!!!

STOP GIVING ME STUPID OPTIONS!!!

STOP PUTTING ME IN ODD SITUATIONS!!!

STOP IT!!!

STOP IT!!!

STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE NEVER GIVEN YOU THAT SECOND CHANCE....

KNOWING THAT YOU WOULD DO THIS......
A-G-A-I-N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

F*** OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

foolish games

you took your coat off
and stood in the rain
you're always crazy like that........

and i watch form my window
always felt i was outside
looking in on you...

you were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes and careless hair
you were fashionably sensitive
but too cool to care....

you stood in my doorway
with nothing to say
besides some comments on the weather...

in case you failed to notice
in case you failed to see
this is MY HEART!
BLEEDING before you!!!
THIS IS ME DOWN ON MY KNEES!!!!!!

these foolish GAMES
are TEARING ME APART
AND YOUR THOUGHTLESS WORDS
ARE BREAKING MY HEART
they're breaking my heart...

you're always brilliant in the morning
smoking your cigarette and talking over coffee
your philosophy on art. baroque moved you. you love mozart
and you think of your loved ones as i clumsily strum my guitar.

you teach me of honest things
this that were daring, things that were clean
things that i knew what an honest dollar did mean
i HID MY SOILED BARE HANDS BEHIND MY BACK
somewhere along the line, i must have gone off track with you...

EXCUSE ME
HAVE I MISTAKEN YOU FOR SOMEBODY ELSE?????
SOMEBODY WHO GIVES A DAMN!!!!!! SOMEBODY MORE LIKE MYSELF....

these FOOLISH GAMES
ARE TEARING ME!!!!!!
THEY'RE TEARING ME!!!!!!!!!
TEARING ME APART!!!!!!

and you're THOUGHTLESS WORDS
are BREAKING MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEE'RE BREAKING MY HEART..........




i never knew the true meaning of the lyrics until i sang them with the accompaniment of my piano...

foolish games do tear hearts apart, set them on fire, burn them into ashes...

they can stab your hearts mercilessly

unfiltered words and actions....
like sharp tiny fragments of hot metal, piercing through your helpless heart!

i never knew the meaning until this moment.

the moment when i am left to slowly and painfully pull out the tiny fragments

alone....

all by myself...

it is a foolish game with deadly consequences.

i am well aware of it...

but...

i still play along...

ha!

foolish me...

if the sky that we look on
should tumble and fall
or the mountain should crumble to the sea
i won't cry, no i won't
just as long as you stand by me....
stand by me.....

another summer day
has come and gone away
in paris and rome
but i want go home...
may be surrounded by
a million people
i still feel all alone
i want to go home...
let me go home.....

don't leave me in all this pain
don't leave me out in the rain
come back and bring back my smile
come and take this pain away
i need your arms to hold me tight
the night is so unkind
bring back the nights when i held you beside me....
unbreak my heart.....